Saturday, December 30, 2006

really nice post

India described ....

Irony

from India Uncut
Reuters reports:
A 21-year-old German tourist who wanted to visit his girlfriend in the Australian metropolis Sydney landed 13,000 kilometers (8,077 miles) away near Sidney, Montana, after mistyping his destination on a flight booking Web site.

what can i say......

Thursday, December 28, 2006

Happens again

You cherish friends...

It takes a lot to make a friend emotionally and time wise.......

But then time comes where you need to part... it hurts..

happens every year or so nowadays.. but still it is not easy to handle

lets see...

Wednesday, December 27, 2006

another uncle

a good friend of mine has become an uncle 2 days back... must be a great feeling!!
2 people that i am very close to now... have a nephew and a niece

Scared

I am scared... yes I am......

For me I just cant make friends and be superficial about it... especially those who stay near me....
that takes a lot of effort... if anybody has a small issue... i feel like i should do something for them.....its really becoming very difficult for me to .. and i over do it..

Moreover.... i am always interested in knowing what they think abt me.......and i attach significance to small things and interpret as i please and put pressure on myself for trivial things.....

I dont know how to address it... i know you need human attachment and friendship ... but do i overdo it... the answer is "I dont know"... but i intend to work at it....

lets see how far that works...........

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

great 3 days..

it has been fun for the last 3 days.....

we had fun playing games like mafia, kaali tikki.... and of course the discussions.. we visited enchanted rock and pedarnales again.......

it was actally the first trip i went with austin junta without vikas.............

however.... everything that happens still leaves so many questions unanswered and kinda scares you.... But you see... life has to move and it will.....

time is coming close for me to put in a n honest effort at work.... i hope i can do a good job....

Sunday, December 24, 2006

interestingly true....

"Leo moon personalities can be extremely stubborn. They have purpose, determination, and tenacity when it comes to getting what they want. Strongly idealistic, they are capable of great personal sacrifice for causes in which they passionately believe. Even when presented with irrefutable evidence that their idealism or loyalty has been misguided, they may find it difficult to move on. They are very assertive when it comes to protecting not only their own freedom but also the rights and freedom of others. They have a jealous nature, though they are not particularly possessive. When a romance ends, they are more apt to suffer from a wounded ego than a broken heart. They are likely to have artistic talent, or at least great interest in art, architecture, and design. "

http://www.0800-horoscope.com/moonsigns/leo.html

the artist

"If a statement of excellence is needed then it came in the spell of three balls sent down during the Perth Test match in 2000 against the West Indies. First he exploited Sherwin Campbell's habit of shuffling across his crease with an outswinger pitched to a fuller length than usual. Lara appeared. he adjusted his line, slightly reduced his length and cut the ball across the left-hander. Lara disappeared. Jimmy Adams came next. It must have been tempting to try the same ball. After all he was on a hat-trick and it had been good enough for Lara. But Adams's weaknesses were different. He knew that he squared up against lifting deliveries directed at his body. Of course pinpoint precision was needed.

His hat-trick was amongst the best Test cricket has known. Every ball was superbly conceived and executed. It was a definitive moment, a satisfying and conclusive demonstration of the abilities that have set him apart." from cricinfo.com

to do that you need to be a great artist.. and without doubt "Glen McGrath" is

Thursday, December 21, 2006

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

Kite Runner

A very nice book.....

made me feel a lot better for various reasons......

reading it enabled me realize exactly what i felt for a thing i did..... it is my mistake and i need to own up for that..... but i have to live with it... at least knowing exactly what is the mistake makes it a little better......... anyway..

i am so happy i started reading books.... You learn a lot in your life and i am realizing books are a very important part of it.. and moreover it puts in perspective what you are doing.... there are way more important things than "research" in life...... Well..........

I wish i could write.... i have thousands of thoughts flowing in my mind and i just cant write them..............................................


anyway....................

Sunday, December 17, 2006

sreesanth

man... i have never seen an Indian sledging.......
and man.... he is not only sledging when bowling......... but he was sledging when he was batting.....

that was awesome...... he hit a six... oh dear... it was simply hilarious..... lets see how he will bowl......

Saturday, December 16, 2006

can i understand ?

no...

i just cant ... why!!!!!

its so weird.... and i dont know what to do....

anyway!!!

a full circle

i think a complete circle has been completed of 1 1/2 years......

If you stay at a place for a long time... esp when you are doing phd.....
life goes on in circles......

i think another one of those is completing.......

will have to start fresh again... and i better do it fast............

Thursday, December 14, 2006

whats wrong with me?

why!!!!!

1 1/2 h rs.. why man.. why me...

i still dont know....

God!!!!

Being alone in office

Very soon I will have to get used to being alone in office....

Well... not that that is something new to me... but still it needs getting used to......

Lets see.........

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

another semester

another semester is over......

it feels good to finish 5 semesters at Ut... at the sametime... it reminds me of the fact that i dont have many more left here........

lets see......

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Kumble.....

"If each of his team-mates had that town-sized heart and unflinching desire to win, India would hardly ever lose a game."


so true dude.... about Kumble........

hats off man!!

Sunday, December 10, 2006

dynamics

there are some dynamic i notice and feel there is nothing odd about it..... but those are things.. that i cant stand... may be because of the conservative background i am from.... or whatever....

i wont to be able to stand them.... i just hope i would not have to.......

interesting tour diary

Ashes.... one of the greatest cricketing contests.......

ranks up there..

india Vs pak...
West indies Vs Australia (in the past!!)
England Vs Australia
Australia Vs New Zealand....

i think are the most popular match ups..where loosing a match is sacrilege ...

ashes is going on.....

australia won 2 matches... esp the second one was too much.. from a position where draw was the only result... they won..... simply amazing... i mean ... you ave to admit it..they are damn good.. and what more Ponting is in the form of his lufe and i am confident he will cross Sachin's 35 record in the series.. well i admit.. i want him to do that.... at least one record without sachin's name... well anyway...

then as i was reading.......online papers... i saw an interesting article by giles..... a diary fo what all he went through... he dropepd a catch.... he is one of those cricketers who is not good enough to be a domestic bowler.. but because of his work ethic and hard work.. has played so many matches for England... though there are days where it is necessary to acept thefact that work ethic is not enough... monty is a better bowler.. and has chances of developing into a great one.. he has the potential.. so its time the english realsie it and start encouraging him.. by discouraging him.. tey are using a bowler who si not capable and the same time destroying monty's confidece... so 2 bad things!!

but... i pity Giles.. i would have loved to have him play.. bcos he gives more than 100% and is a fighter... the kind i love..... you might not be good enough to win.. but fight for it is my way of looking at life..... read this by giles... to see what all a cricketer has to go thru...

blogging................

well... its close to 2 years since I started blogging......

I was not the blogging kind... but once you start... there is no looking back....

interestingly my first year as a blogger produced just 22 posts..... and well... by the second year it all exploded ... i posted 180 in my second year........

i think its due to the fact that i feel more uninhibited..may be.... but most likely it is a sign of the insecurity i feel since May... the reasons evident to me...

looking back at the posts the increased number of posts have coincided with the days i will never forget....

i have not yet recovered form the shock i received....... i know i am strong enough to fight it.... but still it affects me...... i can see the changes in me....... i hate the fact that there are days.... where i dont know whats gonna happen.. the sense of security so evident in my life earlier is not there....... I admit it was my fault... i was the one who failed in my responsibility....

but time has come where i have to move on with life..... there is nothing more i can gain by feeling bad about it........ i know what will happen to me.... i dont know how.....but i am preparing myself to live my life not as i dreamed.....but as it will be....... i have to adapt.... no point in dreaming when things wont happen ........

well... anyway..... i thought of a nice idea....summarizing my life over the last year...... in a post...
well well... so... the next post ...sometime later.......

Saturday, December 09, 2006

grow up

i need to grow up!!!!!!!!

why!! why the hell am I more worried about others than my life.. when .. when will you learn..its your damn life.. live it for yourself... please.........

why.......................

why the hell was my responsibility!!!!!!

why do i worry about all the damn guys.. n in the end up as i have done something wrong and have to hear some crap!!!

utterly useless!!

Friday, December 08, 2006

So close yet so far

i have completed my coursework for this semester... i still have a final.... I am not the kind who cares a lot about grades.... may be I know I cant egt all the top grades.... so I feel (to keep myself happy) grades are not important... so I kinda get a hang of the subject and thats all matters.... may be I am wrong....... but i dont care.........

finally I also sent the report... a ..just... 224 page report that our group has worked on for 3 months..... i was the lead for that and man was it painful.......... but now... may be.. only may be.... i have the patience to write long reports..... i dont know.....but still.....

Also..... this would be the last of mys ems with 3 courses.... so finishing it is good....

may be i can concentrate more on research.....

also i need to get some research work done....... a lot of it....

i have to develop a web survey....... man!!

tomorrow..... will be the 4 th graduation ceremony i am attending...... 2 of my very nice friends..... one of whose company i already miss and the others i will miss very soon.... will be graduating and walking.... i will take the role fo the official photographer........

and most importantly i need to work this break... plz...i need to........!!!!!!!!

Monday, December 04, 2006

200th for real....

i had psoted something twice... so this happens to be my 200th post [:D]

Sunday, December 03, 2006

my 200th post

well... my 200th had to be about soemthing i feel passionately about....

well now i know what it is..... it is about applying to universities in the US.. an dthe way its handled... i always ahd problems with high CG peoiple thinking only about themselves and not people below them.... agreed you have high cg.. you have the right... but still you will not loose anything by thinking about your fellow classmates......common give them a chance!!!! thats all i ask......

morning blues

somedays you get up and realize you are in a really bad mood....

the reason.. well.. someti9mes its just getting up..its just liek that..... but sometimes.... the previous night things cause it.......

dont know how to change it though... which makes it really painful.....

Saturday, December 02, 2006

interesting

some people....... like you.. are concerned about you.... but still... you cant stand them for extended periods.... not that you dont respect them or something.... its something that gets to you...


and then ... there are some people....... who are more concerned abt themselves and are not worried about people around them... still they are the more attractive type...... why??
is it because the grass is greener on the other side.. the person who cares for you will care for you anyway... so why bother about him/her..... hmmm... well... i dont know ...... its a very interesting question.,.... anyway....

i know the answer is less than a month away.... so i will wait .........

other things....

had a nice party.... were able to surprise the person for whom we hosted it.... it made me feel happy...