arbit

somedays.... and esp with some people.. its not very clear.... it makes it weird.. the fact that how much you appreciate the other person.... if you do not know that.... or cannot understand that... may be there is something lacking.... or may be it will become clear with time... well.. i believe its the former.... but time will tell.... anyway

india.... doing bad in champions trophy :(

i am meeting an old friend from campus..lets see how it goes....

and forgot to mention...
i felt nice that our guide took us out after quals .......:D

anyway... get back to work dude.... start writing... oh god......

My writing

I have been working on writing something or the other forever or so it seems...

I worked on getting a report done..... now i have to work on a chapter for a book... and very soon one more paper.... Dont know... writing does not seem to be very intellectual work to me.. i know there are many people... esp my prof.. who treat it as very intellectual..... hopefully someday I also will feel the same......

anyway.......................

quotes

A person is never happy except at the price of some ignorance.

When two men in business always agree, one of them is unnecessary.

Setting a good example for children takes all the fun out of middle age.

What's the difference between a boyfriend and a husband? About 30 pounds.

Quals...

i passed my quals...

so i am officially in as a Phd student....

my prof wants me to finish by 2008 aug..... which means... i have less than 2 yrs to finish......i dont know what to say and do!!!!

anyway......

festivals in austin

Austin has been a real place whenever there are festivals...

especially with the kind of cooks we have...

Diwali... was special.... i cnat evn mention what all i ate!!

Id... wasnt it fun..

another small observation... when mutton exits ... man its too good.... way way better than anything else!!!

One more thing I need to work on is patience... anyway!!!

tomorrow ...i have a presentation... and i hope i am gender neutral there!!!!

You dont know

someday you just dont know..... so it sucks!!!!

interestng quotes

Women want mediocre men, and men are working hard to become as mediocre as possible.

Why

why do small things affect me...

why do i give so much importance to stuff thats not worth it and spoil my mood!!!!

anyway

an interesting topic..

was chatting with a friend and comes the big topic...

some people hate the place i stay... because the people here are weird......

yes.. it is not easy to acclimitise to any country.. other than yours... but that does not make the culture of the place / people of the place bad....

i would always say i prefer living in my country to here... however that is not because the place i now live in is bad....

first of all it is important to accept that .... there r goods and bads everywhere.... just bcos u r from a particular country to say everything there is fine is utter foolishness..... however... since you are brought up in that climate.... you dont even realize soemthings.... so a stint outside your country helps..... it provides you an exposure to see what goes on in the other parts of the world and lets you out of the frog in the well atitude....

of course as a person your biases will influence the way u look at things... a person who has strong liking towards going back would always find reasons to say the country your living is bad.... but however... its always better to say..i am better fit to my country... and the new place is different.... saying the people in the new country are bad/mad is not right.....

the point is just because they/us are born in a different country does not make us/them superior or inferrior to anyone........ so live and let live.. like your country more.... but dont hate the country you live.. thats not the way to go..... is what i feel!!

yesterday's post

was suppossed tow rite this yesterday... just cud nt get to it

was a sweet day... i spent time for myself... felt great.. one fo the very few times i spend time... i worked out.. had a long nice shower.... and it felt real good... dont know why...

especially with the kinda vacuum created for me... its important i get to enjoy tome for myself... anyway.......

arbit day

there are days when you feel.. you dont know whats happenning

your advisor feels your writing sucks.... i agree it does.... so!!
I have not been writing for years.... anyway...its a thing i will work on

then you feel lonely.. is nt it weird that everybody (includes me!!) are living a life of their own... dont know it kinda feels weird... friends!! some of them... seem weird..... its not because of the way they behave.. anybody would behave like that in their position... but it kinda feels weird..

especially when you know you dont have someone!!

i dont know what i am getting at.. anyway

lots of work to catch up.. but workout first :)

I hate loosing

i dont know...

i hate when I loose.. esp when i know i could have won... if you play 100% and loose...thats great.. but a match you can win!! god that sucks!!!

vibha

well... i am very happy to have finished 5km..(its not many!!).... without a stop... a good sign of my improved stamina.... and i hope i can improve that further... anyway

its a nice feeling..after the run... and eating salad...(i should say lettuce:D)
now its back to work...

man...... i got a lot of that to do!!

Nobel Prize

nobel prizes have been declared this year.......

it was nice to see the guy from bangladesh get it for a really ncie orgqanization set up.

it kind of brings things into perspective... what are we doing ..how relevant is what we are doing to the lives of so many poor, deprived people all over the world... well the answer is nothing... it is not very easy to accept it!!

may be someday.... if at least as a part of something..if you ca help the downtrodden to stand on their legs and improve the standard of living...your life will have a meaning

Lets see

Weekend Blues

this weekend i have lots of things to do... infact i have so many things that i am just not able to do even one thing well.... anyway... i hope to handle it better

yesterday's trip to sphagetti ware house was cool.... the food was nice....... especially the bread with cheese.... and of course the tiramisu

before the trip my friend was here... it felt nice talking to her after a long time.......

life moves on..... accepting that is important..... the person move on..... you have newer commitments... newer set of people to satisfy.... and newer contacts to be made... when will i learn that!!!

gen

interesting day.....
had 3 classes..... man were they painful...
i really didnt feel like sitting through them today... dont know why... there are days where you feel the courses you do are not very helpful... anyway...

then my workout went well... i increased my weights.. n its the first week!! .... lets see

then i found during the workout i could read a paper...... that was real fun ... and i did like it... so i know my thursday workout times are not waste of time :D

then ice cream was cool........ and time passed real fast.......

now its time to work........

quotes...

The trouble with jogging is that, by the time you realize you're not in shape for it, it's too far to walk back.

Truth is beautiful, without doubt; but so are lies.

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--/ I took the one less traveled by, / And that has made all the difference.

Nothing inspires forgiveness quite like revenge.

fuuny!!!

"If God wants I will obviously lead the side one day."

Mohammad Yousuf bypasses Pakistan's national selectors

i just cant stop laughing!!

Too many things to post

well, well....

first.... my workout sessions have been going on regularly..... today was the first time i increased the weights a little bit.. man was it tough... got nearly lugged but finished my quota... so pleased...

second... you can see that i am writing lots of reports and so the nice bulleted format... sent some drafts to my seniors... lets see how things go..

third... vibha walk is coming up and i plan to pledge some donations... i have friends who are working... so they should be able to afford some money.... lets see

fourth... i have a long week ahead..... and lots of work... too many to even list..

fifth .... will have to finish "Catcher in the rye" soon :D

orkut fortune

"Your winsome smile will be your sure protection"

wish I had a winsome smile.... through which i could control the world :D

interesting ha

Life is so weird......

changes occur... sometimes you are unsure about it.... you get pained !! wondering should that change have occurred....

I am really wondering... should that change have occurred!!!!

I know the answer.. that is why I am worried.......

there are things that one will and should tolerate...

those are things that you would expect your freinds to understand when you are in such position... but there are things you just cant but get pained.....

this leads to questions!! why!!!

anyway......

tried a new curry for the first time... was really good....

Italian cuisine...

well... its a little bland for me.....
but u need to choose correctly to like it and i m learning well :D

ofcourse i have developed liking for salads with proper dressing... i love ranch :D

Hmmm

why does life become....... so complex!!!

timely orkut fortune

You display the wonderful traits of charm and courtesy

i always wondered how important it is to be starightforward versus diplomatic...

If I know somebodyis wrong I find it very difficult not to mention it and carry on as if nothing has happenned... even if that thing is not a big thing.. i find really difficult..... may be because i feel it is like fooling yourself that you accept... i feel its a way you encourage the other person/thing to happen in a similar way again...... i know that has its drawbacks... you might end up quarrelling for trivial things.... but if you exercise restraint in trivial things and exhibit your feelings in things that matter thats ideal.. but if you sit down silent and be diplomatic i feel its wrong!!

Then... I am at the stage of life where people who are about 25 and single find it really weird !!

It was different for me.. but i was effectively single even in the past... now the fact that i consider myself single.... its even harder... dont know why...... I am not alone.... I know other friends of mine who feel similarly..........

It is weird is all i can say.......... it is not possible to put into words anthing more!!!
May be its because you know there is a vacuum... nobody exists to understand and accept you as you are..... (apart from your family!!)

Random thoughts

There are times when you feel scared... when it is really difficult to comprehend life...
why somethings happen... and those to some people.....
Those thoughts move you so much .. They influence your life... The really tough decisions you need to take.... May be it is foolish to be influenced by those thoughts.. But you cant help it....

Everything in life is a result of a series of inspirations... You try things out and realize you eithe r love them or not.... You pursue things with a vigor if you lover them......... and some scare the wits out of you... sometimes giving you comfort in really hard decisions....

As far as I am concerned, so far, I had to make only one really tough decison that will affect my life.... Whenever I think about it... it hurts.... i feel guilty....... but the scary thoughts comfort me.... may be its for the good......

what can i do !!!

Time to move on

I have successfully passed my quals.......

and yesterday was fun with all my friends here....

now its time to move on....... i have lots of things to finish... I should speed up things and work hard!!!!!

one of those weird orkut fortunes

You and your wife will be happy in your life together

Dussehra fun

wow... what a weekend it was....

we went to Emma Long Park... played volley .. cricket... frisbey... and had a small swim... it was fun....

was a long ..long tlak session... dont know how it went... hoping everything turns out well....

kinda loosing the vision and purpose in life... have to get back on track... tomorrow se.....!!!

lets see....