WHY

well.....

i was the kind who hated everything that anybody does to look in shape.... it has to be natural was what i thought and believed... working out was a thing for the seud or the guys who show off....

now.. after a period of 4-5 months of consistent work out... i am not sure what to think.... am i showing off... why did this change occur?..... is it because my opinion changed or... is it because in the past i had a security and thus no need to be concerned about how i looked... now its not the same... is that the reason.. or i have become more concerned about health... i am not sure.....

but still the decision haunts me....... dont know until when.....