Back after sometime

been sometime since I blogged now..... Was busy with my moving .... then conference and very soon work..... I guess summer is here and that means its research time..... today we went to "FANAA"..... it was weird to put it mildly!!....

Life has been going on ok types since the last time i blogged..... I am just getting accustomed to my new house... still i need to move some stuff and finish up on that front...... With the room looks like some other things have changed to.... May be I would prefer them that way for now... I still sometimes feel the emptiness...

I made a trip to the library.... to get more novels... i wish i will be productive on that front....

Yesterday was a nice friend's B'day.... and the treat for that in MP was cool... We thulped.. I had my rava dosai and pongal...the only breakfasts i had in IITM... still miss the rava dosai !!

Life

Well finished my 4th sem at UT Austin... This could be the worst sem for me academically !! But since I am doing Phd grades wont be an issue!! I did do lot of work for my RA (not publishable though!!) But still its work and it will be helpful... We are still working for the conference next sunday!!

But personally this sem I have seen everything from utter despair to many happy moments... learnt many lessons about friends and how to moderate my expectations!! Friendships run in cycles where you will see a peak..... but at somepoint the peak ends....... and from then on it is not the same again... it is very difficult to reach the peak again... with time ... things have to change!! and so do priorities.... it did take time to accept this...I of course feel that it depends on the individual..... may be i still dont know how I will behave when I face such situations (i expect to be a little different for sure!! ).... But now I guess I know what to expect from anyone... So I am more prepared......

There were interesting things happenning for my friends here in Austin and at other places.. I wish that these things just go on smoothly....

Now that the sem is over... summer begins... this is my second summer here.... I hope to get some research done and send papers to TRB..... Lets see how all of that works out...

I will be moving out day after tomorrow........ from my apartment in RR to Speedway.... Lets see how this will affect my stay here......

Orkut Fortune

The great pleasure in life is doing what people say you cannot do

I love this one..... I think this is something that I agree to... I get great pleasure in doing stuff people dont want me to do..... Esp my courses :D Of course it has its side effects... a low CG :(

But that wont stop me I guess !!

keep moving !!

Whats Happenning

As I sit here in my office trying to figure whats happenning this sememster I find myself trying to answer questions to which I have no answer. I have an endsem to go. Did really bad in the last one. I dont think I expected to do any better !! I have not attented many classes and during the last month did not even have time to do the assignments!! I have one more endsem to go and the situation in that course is not any better. But I am not sure if i can start studying ... I need a break I guess for 3-4 days where I would just relax.... But till the end of Austin conf I dont see that happenning... So i will try to fight (though I say that without conviction!!) .. May be this is one of the "What am I doing here ? " kind of day......... I am at loss of words to explain i guess.... Have been reading a novel.... i could not sleep..so kept on reading the novel.... I dont think I cared what was happenning in the book.... It was more to delay myself facing the reality fo my exam !!! It seriously raises self doubt!!... Am I not good enough !!! I know I worked a lot on my RA (in fact way too much!!) but still its not a relief !! it still makes me feel I have not been upto it !!
Anyway may be I will try to spend time for the next exam and see..................................

End Sems

Just completed an Endsem... Dont know what to say.. may be I am getting too old for exams... or it is just because I did not like the course... But irrespective of all these.... my grade card would not be great!! thats what matters... Grades!! what do they reflect.... They do not show how much RA work you have to do!! But thats how life is..... I wish I could have spent more time on my courses... Looks like thats gonna become more and more difficult in the future!!

Code and Courses

I sit in my office, on a third nite out in a row ....(i slept for 10hrs in abt 3 days) I am tired... I need a small break i guess.... We have made considerable progress on the code and I for once and all finished my classes this sem... I somehow have not been able to attend many classes this sem and this will surely put additional pressure on me to prepare for the finals... Lets see how i will go about that!!

Pramod Mahajan

The face of BJP in the future is no more. I always liked Pramod Mahajan. The first time I saw him was an interview on TV when he contested the elections to Lok Sabha from Bombay and lost. Inspite of the loss he oozed confidence and talked like a winner. The charisma struck me that day. From then on I was waiting to see if he will be the next generation leader of BJP. I expected someday he will the PM. Alas! it is not to be. What a strange way that too... to die at the hands of your own brother... I feel sad for his family..... May his soul rest in peace

Dressing up

"Simplicity and clarity should be your theme in dress" my orkut fortune

i believe in not dressing up at all... Dont know why but I have never been interested in dressing up. Somehow I feel its a way of creating an impression. Why should I create an impression... that too with my appearance is my arguement... It might seem foolish... but the adamant guy that I am I will stick to it... I would like people who take me as I am and not because how i look. That way I feel I use my dressing sense (or lack of) to connect to only the people who are not superficial (or dont award utmost imp to superficiality!!) ..... Even my long hair was not an intention to be a hep guy.. It was only a manifestation of this rebellion :D ....