Gult guys

I am at the stage where many batchmates (including most of my close friends!!) are making a very important decision in life.... Obvioulsly choosing the life partner...

I have heard all sorts of things from these guys..... i refer only to the gult friends here..... There have been guys who said the girl has to be gult (includes me !! ) ... There are others who said she should be traditional..conservative... ( again I am one of them!!) .... But as the wickets start to tumble (i mean they start finding partners!!) these rules or broad guidelines seem to vanish.... A guy who cant even look at a girl without a bindi ... goes for one who never puts on one !!.... Guys born and brought up in India look towards the ABCD community weirdly!! and a guy falls for her!!.. I am not saying they are wrong or something... Its just that priorities change... I feel its interesting to see all this !! of course they are heading the right way I guess... because thats where they want to go....

I remember what all these guys have said .... So its naturally a little surprising for my conservative self to see these things..... Lets see what more interesting stories I will have to see in the future ...

Amidst all this my future personally is still a blur !!

JOB

A very good friend of mine has been made a job offer.... and most surely she would be staying in austin after Phd..... I am very happy for her :)

All the best for the future !!

Coding ... lets see

I have been trying to understand CEMDAP for about 2-3 days.... I feel if we start looking at the big picture and spend more time we will be able to understand it more clearly. To do this we will need a comprehensive list of the class structures employed and understanding which function is being called in whcih file!!

lets see...we are attempting it today!!

Whats happenning

I have to let out some steam..... this has been a stressful month... I am not used to coding and trying to code without proper time to look into is not very easy... my work now needs results without lag time which works sometimes but in this case is casuing some frustration!!

I have lot to do 3 courses, assignments... research work and my paper ....when will i get this done!!

god knows... may be if the sem is over i will be in better shape..lets see

Blogging

Why does anybody blog?
Is it because he/she wants to let out some steam..... Is it because he wants everybody to know how happy he/she is and share it with them (assuming many people read the blog)..... Is it like a diary... Is it just work of creativity.....Or It can be a means of discussing ones political / cultural and other opinions....

I myself have asked myself the question many times.... Though I havent got an answer.... I do want to keep a diary...so that down the years I can revisit the stuff and remember the moments both happy and sad.... This is one of the reasons I do not ask people to read my blog. I mean I let my friends know I have a blog. Its upto them to read it or not... (but i guess here is where I want to share my happiness/sadness comes in I guess)..... I am sure that I am not creative enough even to consider the third option :D ... I do discuss my opinions.... But since nobody comments the purpose is not served. I could say its more like putting forward my thoughts on Indian Politics, Sports and what not !!

But whatever the purpose I feel a sense of relaxation when I write the blog. So I continue... Lets see how long I will do it....

Cooking - An art

Cooking..... The male chauvinist (now I am more than liberal :D) self I was once upon a time, I considered cooking an exclusive female domain.... But I tried my hand it and I wud say I am not bad.... But I still always thought that girls can cook better... because there is something the females get to do with the same stuff that we use and still cook better than guys.... But I have learnt there are exceptions.... girls who dont realize whether the recipe is for a kg of brinjals or 1 brinjal....... who when said put some channa dal seeds....... instinctively ask.... how many seeds ?... and end up burning microwaveable taquitos ... these are some examples among countless ones....... if you think I am listing exmples about some girls...sorry you are mistaken... These are from the resume of a single person..... God save ur hubby !! :D

Underdog

I saw Cinderalla Man yesterday... I like it a lot... May be its because its a about an underdog fighting to maker history.. I liked the senti... the family life... and the kids... and most of all liked the hero's manager..... It was good...

Now back in office..... and back to work....come on..
lets get going !!

My first proposal -- and random topics

As I finalize the draft of my proposal (research of course!!)...... I am worried.. if my guide would be happy with what i have. lets see......

Coding will be starting pretty soon..... CEMDAP...will consume lot of time...I should start finding time for my courses or else I shall be doomed....

My paper... for now is not progressing...

Apart from that we still have to figure out where to stay and stuff.......


lets see.....waiting for the sem to end sooooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

Good Moments -- Moments of Clarity

Been a very different week this for me... I think I have seen everything from despair to utmost happiness.. the transitions that take place in a space of 3-4 hrs are mind numbing....
Anyway I am happy for my friends... I think finally better sense prevailed (on the part of " ")...and they will be happy... I wish them all the best....

And good to realize some of your friends do care for you... It gives comfort and a sense of relief...Of course to take everything into stride it could be seen this way ..."such tough times strengthen the bond we have"... It surely made me realize some stuff.. I did make my set of mistakes.. But I hope they will forgiven and forgotten .....

Friends

"A friend asks only for your time not your money" -- that is my orkut fortune for the day..

What an irony......... I dont know what to say.... I take a lot of interest in others lives... especially abt people who Iconsider are my friends... i spend a lot of my time thinking about others..... trying to help them if i can....and i thought this further strengthen my friendship.. at least that what i thouht........What I am realizing off late is people will use your help when they need it...But after that they dont need you anymore.. They need people who are ready to listen to their sad stories..... hmm... whatver be the loss to the person because of that..... they do not realize it... or they dont care... The mood in which I am in i go for the latter......

If it were one person..... I would have felt may be he/she is the odd one... But somehow the list seems to grow!! I feel like being used...... I have had enough.... I have great friends from IITM ... I think they are the ones I will be looking upto when I need help.... My priorities from today will change radically... I have decided to do some stuff... and will do them!!!

I have wasted enuf time on my so called "friends" in austin..........

The only thing to be happy is....... "better late than never"

Now on.. I have things to do.......

Reservations ------ my reservations

I cannot comprehend what our political leaders plan to do with our country... They anyway do not assist in the progress... why the hell do they stop whats going on.... reservations are ok... if they really go to the people who deserve it.... and for sure professional education is not where reservation is to be provided... Something has to be done at a lower level... primary and secondary eduation level so that they can compete with the so called "other classes" who are "ahead".... and reservation in the form of caste is ridculous in the time we are living in. It only divides the people... and creates confusion!!

CEMDAP - random thoughts

hmm.... CEMDAP.... dreamchild of my guide...been working on it since I came to UT... As I run three SPSS programs.. my computer in a state of daze.... mind you its not a slow machine (with 4gb ram)..... As i wait for the runs to be completed i think about what I am doing here at UT. I get involved with so much stuff I should not bother about..... be it in professional or personal stuff and kinda screw up my time. I should make better use of my time and the first step for this would be to stay a little aloof with people around you. You can be friendly yet dont waste your time !! I surely need to learn this or else I dont know what will happen to me....

Friends --

Not an easy breed to find.... you make friends ..feel great that you have such a nice bunch of friends.... Thats an awesome feeling... there are people who will help you when you are in trouble...when you are not happy..they will cheer you..... and of course you are expected to help them out in their times of need.....

As far as i know... i was just helping him.....he found it was logical the first time I talked..... I talked because things were getting out of hand between us... there were misunderstandings... I took the initiative and tried to clear the misunderstanding... i guess it was good...But within a week the situation is back to square one.... This time I am not gonna take the initiative for sure.... I expect reciprocation... or else it is not my job to try to clear the air... Once is fine...But if i have to clear the air every week there is something wrong... and this is happenning bcos of " " .... I cant help it.. I am not liking whats happenning.. But i think I did whatever I thought was good for my friend. Its upto him to see it.. If he feels what he is doing is right he shuld go ahead... no questions asked... But he has the responsibility to let me know what his decison is.. I dont want that issue to affect the way we are.. For sure there will be things where you might not like what a friend does but that alone does not mean you will stop talking.... it will always leave a scar.. but things can move on....... I dont know what will happen in our case....

expectng for the better............